Dear John,

I have so much to say I do not know how to begin. You are still so alive to me and to many others in this world. You mean alot of things to me, but mostly you are an inspiration. I am a writer and I am sometimes afraid to express myself,but then I listen to you and I understand what I must do. I love you very much and I miss you even though I never met you in real life.

I had a dream once that actually got me back in tune with listening to the Beatles like I did when I was younger and also into you. You were reaching out for me, you were young and handsome, you had a loving vibe coming off of you to me. It was an amazing dream. The sad part was, the tips of our hands touched and then I glided away on a boat . You were still looking at me and smiling, wanting me to come back. I was so moved by that dream. I remember the feeling I got when we touched, it was exhilarting.

I also want to share with you how I felt when you died. I was only around 7 years old, but I remember it very well. I just started to listen to the Bealtes that year and I definitely knew who you were. I turned on the TV in the evening and I saw people crying at a gathering in this park. I started to get the feeling someone must have died, I saw people holding posters of you and the Beatles. Then they announced the ten minutes of silence for John Lennon. I realized what had happened- I could not bear the sight of it! I had experienced death early in life before that and this was just one more person who was great who had to die. It seemed wrong, so wrong. I get emotional just thinking about that evening- I started to get very mad, I started to yell "No! it can't be!" . Being so young and confused, I started to hit the damned TV! Its kinda funny, but kinda sad too. I did not want to accept that you had died. I just got to know you and your music- I loved the Beatl

I will lastly say that I think you are a beautiful person who was grossly misunderstood. It's always that way isn't it? I understand you. We alll with you were here to help us now. We have so much fear and wer are in a bad state of affairs in America. We are at war because there were terrorists that bombed the World Trade Center in NY. You would have wept John and been very angry. We all are saddened by this. I have no idea what will happen next. I wish you were here - really. There was a nice tribute that Yoko arranged for you- Sean was there and he sang Julia- not as good as you, but he did pretty well. Alot of people were there and the funds went to victims of the attack. You should be happy about that. I wish Julian was there- he misses you too. We all do. May God keep you on your beautiful cloud of water.

With all my love,

 

 

Erica Dozier

15th October 2001