- 11:00 AM, Friday,
December 5th, 2001:
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- I've got a great
visual for everyone to show where we're at right now.
It's been really hard to explain just what Aspen
meant, and where we are without it. I think this will
help.
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- Think of the road
to success/fame/fortune and development deal as a
tightrope. A tightrope I've NEVER walked before.
Charlotte on the otherhand of course has LIVED at the
circus her whole life. Been a part of other people
getting across and been on the other side of it once
they've become successful. We start to walk across
with the first few shows.
-
- Below us is a
safety net - except it's not just a net. It's a
trampoline. You hit this trampoline right - it'll
catapult your ass to the other side, most LIKELY
higher than if you'd just walked it. That trampoline
was most definitely Aspen. And winning the category
was the equivalent of hitting the sweet spot on that
baby...
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- So quite obviously
we were walking the tightrope rather carefree. We
still planned our moves, and took each step
accordingly - but with huge smiles on our faces,
getting ready for the huge plunge into Aspen and the
subsequent lift to the other side.
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- Now, it gets
scary.
-
- Not only is that
sweet spot gone - the entire trampoline is GONE. The
past few days have been Charlotte and I looking
down. "Oh shit." Yeah, we can probably still get
across - but now it's fuckin' serious. Add to
everything: WIND.
-
- The comments made
in the defeat of Aspen have put both Charlotte and I
into a bit of shock. They are sentiments that if
carried over to other industry people we encounter,
there's no way in hell I'm getting a deal in 2002.
We'll fall from the tightrope, and have to find a way
up the ladder back to the tight rope. Obviously the
"edgy" comment hurt, but the really scary one is: I
haven't "paid my dues" yet. There was a lot of
"there's always next year" from Aspen. And of course,
there isn't. I won't be doing this show in 2003. But
the the sentiment is, that no matter what -
I need to pay my dues before I waltz
in.
-
- That could very
well translate into how the other rejections are
formed in the coming months. No matter how amazing The
Trinitrons is, no matter how incredible crowds react
to it, it's my first try to these people. So they
wanna know what's next. How do I top it. Come back and
try again. Therein, amazingly, lies the rub: I
can't.
-
- How on EARTH, can
you show more talent than with The Trinitrons? From
the characters, to the acting, to the singing, to the
songwriting, to the scriptwriting, to the potential
for television, to the "looks", to the editing, to the
innovation, to the creativity, to the WORK ETHIC.
What more can I possibly do? If The Trinitrons doesn't
work...what do I become? Charlotte says
"actor".
-
- "You need to start
thinking of yourself as an actor" she says. (sigh) -
If that's what this path becomes next year...I may be
on my way out. If I become yet another headshot along
with 20,000 others looking to get a walk-on in a
sitcom: I'm dead. My heart will die. Of course I am
getting headshots (the 13th), amd will do whatever
necessary to get more exposure. I know
I need it. Including the cattlecalls and bit
parts - WHATEVER. But that's only with the knowledge
that The Trinitrons is the true showcase - and I'm
only doing this "other stuff" to round out the resume.
From the sound of it though - that's how Charlotte
thinks I may have to get in.
-
- It's all of this,
that really sets the tone for the next few months.
It's very tense folks. There's a desperation that has
certainly never been equated with The Trinitrons.
Basically, if I have no offers by the end of February,
I most likely won't in 2002. You can only sign up so
much talent in a year, and by Aspen, quotas are
usually filled.
-
- So we're both at
the beginning of this tightrope, with NOTHIN' - not
even a net, and Charlotte's already preparing me for
the fall. That a development deal can still happen,
but I need to think of myself as an actor, and
hope for parts. Whew.
How quickly will Adam
become a headshot and resume? Tune in NEXT time
on "THe Journey".
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- Oh, and I'm done
writing now until most likely after the Xmas Show on
the 14th. So you can expect an entry on that Saturday.
It'll easily be more uplifting than this. And I want
to thank Kyle Pees for giving me a Casey Kasem clip
that lead to me finding this flash for the video
entry. It made me laugh quite a bit. I almost think
the last part of it is funnier if you DON'T watch
the animation. Either way - it's
classic.
And for some reason I can't run it on the page,
you have to download it into your computer. Ahh well,
you'll wanna save this.
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- Adam
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