Did you think it
would be this difficult? I honestly didn't think
this would effect me so much. You add in the fact that
the past 7 weeks have been some of the most depressing
days of my life for my lack of anything productive to
do, and the attack just magnifies my depression even
more. Throw in a missing J-Dog, a long distance wife,
and no word from "Bob" - and it's a wonder I even get
up anymore. So I'll now let you in on EVERYTHING, and
move on.
Bob Saget. Full
House, America's Funniest Videos, damn funny scene in
Half-Baked - Bob Saget. That's the man. The man who
has held up my life for 7 weeks. LOL. There's good
news and bad news. Charlotte finally called his house
2 weeks ago and left a message. He called his manager
that night, and his manager called Charlotte the
following day. It was amazingly positive. Charlotte
couriered over the tapes and Bob's manager said he
likes helping up and coming comics and would get back
to her in 2-3 days. Well finally after 6 days -
Charlotte was about to call back and the attack
happened. Kind've tough to call and ask Bob to be
funny for me after all that. We have since called last
Thursday, Friday, Monday and today...with absolutely
no word. It is a jewish holiday but it's now been 2
weeks and I'm finally done waiting. I will be
performing The Trinitrons on Sunday, September 30th
here at the complex. I will tape it, super-impose the
tvs and have copies in Columbus when I come home
October 3rd-12th. Thank GOD. I cannot tell you how
depressing it was thiking I'd have nothing to show for
this ENTIRE year when I came home. Hell,
I thought I could be done in APRIL. And now in
October, I'm BARELY gonna make it. That's certainly
helped my attitude a bit. I now have a goal, a
deadline - and a BUNCH of work to do to make this
badboy complete in only 12 days.
Please be aware
that we are still pursuing Bob, and I still feel it's
likely he'll want to help. It's just been a
REALLY bad case of timing, and I can't afford to
wait anymore. Though putting his ending together after
the alternative version is complete will be AMAZINGLY
difficult...it will be worth it. So SWEET JESUS it's
over. This
STUPID-LONG-EPIC-MOVIES-DONT-TAKE-THIS-LONG-TO-PRODUCE-development
for The Trinitrons will be complete by the end of this
month. April 2001. LOL.
Feelings on the
attack and upcoming war are all over the place. I
really wonder how leaders in Israel feel. Imagine
being told for DECADES to be peaceful and not
retaliate to terrorist attacks in which you see your
women and children killed CONSTANTLY, yet we take one
on the chin and we're ready for WWIII. How incredibly
arrogant it's been for us to act "better" than the
Israelites who wanted to fight... Can you imagine say
the United Kingdom telling us we need to be peaceful
right about now? It's a wonder more noses weren't
punched during the peace talks.
And I still don't
honestly believe we can stop someone who is willing to
die for their cause, though I dare some mo-fo to
hijack MY plane now. Before I would've just shut
up and waited until we landed in the country of his
choosing. Now that this is a possible outcome... I
would have no trouble pulling a vigilante with a few
of my fellow passengers. I have a feeling though that
future attacks will come in ways we've never even
dreamt of. Which also makes a war somewhat futile. Do
you really think these people care if we destroy their
homes? When we hit something they care about...they'll
bomb an office building in LA. We take out their
leader? They strap on explosives and walk into a
stadium. Of course we can't "do nothing" - but I sure
would like someone to tell me how they plan on
stopping terrorism. Probably getting the hell OUT of
the middle east is the only thing that would end it
HERE, but it would still continue THERE. It sure has
been interesting watching our leaders talk about the
subject...
First, that Tim
Russert interview with Cheney was AMAZING. I'm not
sure I've ever seen a politician that seemed more
trustworthy than him. You just DON'T believe he's
lying -EVER. He's straight forward, and when he can't
comment he SAYS so. Very fair, very intelligent,
and very fat. That heart ain't gonna make it for this
entire war. No way. But I sure hope it does, I love to
hear him speak. Realize I say this knowing he's
as crooked as the rest of them - but during that
interview Cheney had presence.
Colin Powell is
another bad-ass. Same with Tony Blair... ya know -
maybe it's just in comparison to Bush. I'm afraid it
is. What I used to love about Bush, his ability to
make me LAUGH while he speaks, is now very very
difficult to watch. You see that phone call with
Pataki and Guliani? Oh dear GOD. They should NEVER
have shown that on TV. LOL. He just can't speak. I'm
not saying he's stupid, it's just that...well...damnit
- yeah, he just NEVER strikes me as bright. Then
again, the thought of Gore in this situation is just
as pathetic. I really can't believe those 2 were all
we had to choose from. You miss Clinton at all? At
least for TV's sake? Even republicans have to cringe a
bit a Dubya. Anyway, I do feel bad for him...he's
in one helluva situation - and it's gotta be tearing
him apart at times. When he teared up last Wednesday
my heart went out to him. I'd like to buy him a beer
and talk about football.
And oh shit -
don't get me started on professional athletes right
now. As if they weren't WHINY enough, they way they've
acted about this has PISSED ME OFF. Lemme
ask you - how many of you missed a day of work because
of this? Exaclty. If anything, some people went home
early on Tuesday - but were back on the horse the
following day. And to hear these pansy-ass brats
say: "How can we think of football when they're
still pulling bodies out of the wreckage?" made me
livid. THE SAME WAY every other american had
to think about pumping gas, making furniture, writing
commercials, driving cabs, teaching children, and
paying BILLS. That's real life. Now I understand that
on Tuesday and most likely Wednesday nobody wanted to
CHEER for sports, but by Saturday, I think we all
would've enjoyed a break from 100 straight hours of
death and carnage. But more than anything, the
attitude of "How can we think of football when they're
still pulling bodies out of the wreckage?" just killed
me. Hate to tell you this, but they're gonna be
"pulling bodies" for weeks. And that rubble which
harbors the ashes of thousands will be there for
months. It's nice that the athletes realized that
there are more important things than sports, but they
once again showed their true colors. And as well, how
AMAZINGLY out of touch they are with the working
class. I know, I stand completely alone here...and you
al think I'm an insensitive cock. Well I'm sure my
next paragraph will piss you off too.
Friday night we
had a candlelight vigil outside in remembrance of the
victims. You may have gotten an email telling of this
nationwide event. I remember walking out and getting
chills seeing so many people outside my complex with
candles. They were also waving flags, which struck me
as odd - but I understood the sense of patriotism
we all have right now. What this did though, was make
many cars going by honk and shout pro-USA comments out
the window. A lot of WOO HOOs! Much in the
way someone yells for their football team. As well
later - there was a HUGE "vigil" on Ventura Blvd. a
block away - that was supposedly like Mardi-Gras.
People hangin' out windows - yellin' "USA-USA!" chicks
flashin' their tits... all sorts of fun.
(sigh). There's a
"frat-boy" mentality with patriotism that I have
always felt is just way out of place. First of all, in
my mind...you don't speak during a vigil. You
remember. I understood some of the honking cars
showing the support...but the cheering and flag waving
just pissed me off. I stayed far away from the Ventura
Blvd. Bullshit because that sight would've really
irked me. I love the hell out of my country. I
understand and appreciate the freedoms we have, and am
so thankful I was born in here. Some things
however, shouldn't mix. Vigils and rallys should be
two completely different events - and mixing them is
insulting to the victims. Then again, it was mostly
young people reacting this way, and at least they're
erring on the side of patriotism I guess.
Anyway,
I gotta get back to editing. God I can't wait to
get this put together so I can practice Live Adam!!
It's about time...
Adam
Oh,
almost forgot the video...a
small
slideshow
of some of the less graphic images from
this past week...
