No shit. I'm in a
scene with C. Thomas Howell of "Soul Man", and
"Outsiders" fame. Does shit turn on a DIME out here or
what?
First, of all, the
meeting with Michele. HOLY SHIT. Some of the
things she told me about this business, specifically
the role of a manager, absolutely floored me. There's
no reason to list it here, but suffice to say, the
mental anguish I felt earlier this year was not
without cause. Michele actually said it was one of the
worst managing experiences she's ever heard of. The
controlling aspect of what went on from October to
February, to the almost crazed insistence on being
omnipotent and right on every issue effected me like
it would any "rookie" to this town not knowing what
was right or wrong with the happenings around him. The
most amazing part of all of this is just how little I
told Michele. I've honesly tried hard to forget most
of what was told to me during that year as looking
back it just hurts like hell. Then again, a simple
reading of the entires during that time makes my skin
crawl. Even without giving too many specifics, Michele
was pretty amazed. The good news is, I feel like I
have a pretty strong foothold on what the role of a
manager should be. In fact, I'm no longer dreading the
search as I have been all year. If a person like
Michele describes actually does exist, then I'm pretty
much a dream client and there should be very little in
the way of struggle within the relationship. Unlike
the first few months with Charlotte that were
absolutely exhausting. Oftentimes Jess would ask me if
this was all worth it after the 3-4 hour arguments
I had, and at the time I felt it was how it
was supposed to be. Wow.
As well, Michele
is giving some tapes to her acting manager, and some
other people she knows who she thinks may be
interested in at least sitting down with me. And
again, Michele was truly impressed with the tape
(simply the show portion from the DVD), and has no
other stake in this other than I do the updating on
her website. LOL. And she even pays me for that...
I guess I'm just trying to prove to myself that
there is actually a goodhearted person in this city
that could possibly do something for no other reason
than she wants to help a fellow artist. It's too bad
that I can no longer take ANYONE on faith
anymore, you know? But as you all know, my own
loyalties go a looooooooooooooooong way. A bit too
long sometimes, and whenever the time comes - I will
repay Michele in anyway possible.
As I will with
Kerry. LOL. You all gotta wonder sometimes why so many
contacts out here are women dont you. LOL. Well they
ALL know and like Jess so don't think too much
drama whores. Anyway, Kerry was the girl who had a
part for me and Paddy as male prostitues in that John
Wayne Gacy film but they filmed it before we could get
there. Well, this time there was no such problem.
An
extra never showed up and I got to play
the role of "Detective" in the C. Thomas
Howell Thriller "Net Games" due for
release next spring. In
the
video
you can barely make out the part in the
script that says POLICE OFFICERS
wandering around. That's me. WOO HOO.
Unfortunately, it's a feature - which
means you never know what's gonna happen.
Had it at least been a TV Movie, you
could be assured of seeing it at some
point, but features have a way of being
shelved for awhile. Here's hoping
I can own a DVD with my mug somewhere
in it.
And from the looks
of the shot, there will be no problem seeing me. It
may only be 3-4 seconds wondering around a house
during a crime scene investigation, but luckily I'm
one of only 5 people in the shot - so again, you
should see me.
The experience
itself was pretty blase, it was 110 outside and I was
in a suit so waiting in the sun became tiresome.
Seeing CT was crazy. PONYBOY! And he's all...well
almost 40 - so it's a bit jarring seeing SOUL MAN
with grey hair and wrinkles...but it was still him.
Dude was also in ET if you can believe it! (god love
www.imdb.com). Not much to the scene. I start off
getting notes from a cop, my hot-ass chick detective
partner says something to me and I walk off looking
pensive. Word. I really gotta get with a tiny agency
and do things like this from time to time. Even though
it's nothing big, it's something to write home about -
and certainly fun. So all thanks to Kerry for pimpin'
me while they were yelling for an extra. I won't
forget your generosity and will try to repay the favor
soon...
..that is of
course after Jess and I go to rehab for our
Animal Crossing addiction. Folks, you may have laughed
at me before because of my gaming addiction, but this
is insane. Luckily I have Jess and Paddy as witnesses
to it's SOUL-GRIPPING-ADDICTION. It's a real-time game
that goes on 24-7 whether you're playing or not. You
live in a town, and fish, dig shit up - make money,
upgrade your house, trade things with other players,
try and find really rare items, yadda yadda. Seems
mundane and boring, but dear, dear GOD does it mess
with your head. And again, events happen in real-time.
There was a Harvest Moon celebration last saturday
night. This dude gave a concert, and you had to be
there at 8 PM sharp to catch it. I mean, you can't
imagine how stupid you feel when you change your life
to participate in a virtual world. Then again, people
tune in every Thursday at 8 to see Friends, but for
some reason this just seems more pathetic. This was
originally supposed to be Jess's game, but it's become
a community event for sure. Paddy is playing his
character as we speak. I really need to analyze why
the hell I find videogames so much fun. Nah, screw
that. It's been some of the only moments of peaceful
joy in 2002.
But now, lookout.
I've never felt more "back in the saddle" in my life.
Michele has a meeting with her manager tomorrow, and
I simply can't wait to wake-up tomorrow. I
haven't said that since November of last year.
Incredible. Can you imagine if I can pull out a
positive 2002? Can you imagine? After 9 months of hell
to turn it around in the end would be truly
exceptional.
In fact, it would
be the fitting end to "The Journey" 4tvs show wouldn't
it....
