Let me reiterate the true
existence of "luck" in this world. I used to never
believe in it. I always thought hard work,
determination, and talent prevailed. Well, no...those
are just the prerequisites to attempting this
business. The rest...is LUCK. Your level of work,
determination and talent, may get you lucky
earlier...but it's still luck.
So I get up
Monday morning, having thought for hours
about the consequences of my last letter.
Check my email, and other than some
shocked family members, most of you were
supportive. I had told my father
about CD101, and he was bummed because he
kept the secret for me and now looked a
bit untrustworthy...let me please tell
everyone reading: He did that for me, not
to lie to you! Blame me if you blame
anyone. Either way, I can tell you Monday
was a bad day. The depression was deep. I
was losing my mind and had no one to talk
to. I ended up calling Eric Moro, the
producer from hollywoodscreentest.com
that asked me to be in the
MTV contest. Well first
I emailed him this:
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I'm writing
because I simply have to talk to someone about
everything. I'm in danger of having to go back to
freakin' ohio because I can't figure out what the
hell to do. It may sound arrogant, but I simply
have too many directions to go in. Too many talents
to follow. I would give anything if we could meet
sometime soon and just sit and talk. At least you
somewhat know everything I can do, and maybe can
help me with some direction.
Adam
I left a message as well and
he responded within the hour. Asked if we could get
together around 6 PM. Damn...well of course, I'm not
doing anything...lol. So we meet at Lulu's Beehive.
I explain my situation and he says he has an idea
for 4tvs. Hollywoodscreentest.com
is syndicating "TV Shows" or "Content" for the
internet. I was unaware of how big this was.
Content syndication is really starting to blow-up. A
site wants to draw an audience and offers syndicated
multimedia. In turn the creator of this multimedia can
sell his content to thousands of sites....we're
talking 200,000... The content Eric wanted to do with
me is a 4tvs Movie Review. Where the 5 of us review
movies. Very cool. His boss has already approved
starting work on it, and a pilot needs to be made
ASAP. Wow. But that's the first part. As far as my
money problems, Eric felt confident he could use me
with parts of their company that needed work. He'd of
course have to run it by the big boss, but he was very
confident. Hell YES. On top of all this is still the
MTV commercial thing, which after seeing my
competition, I really think I'm gonna do well. So
I'm buzzin' a bit. We go back to their office and talk
a bit more, and we plan to meet tomorrow to write up
the contract on the 4tvs movie review and for me to
submit my auditions.
I of course run back to
Jessica with the best news that could possibly come
after "the letter" I had just written. We are
certainly excited...of course Tuesday is the big day.
So I get in and we talk about percentages of the
revenue that can be made from this, as well as a
salary for me to do the bit...unfortunately everything
rides on it selling. Which, from their point of view
is a shoe-in, Eric feels this would KILL on
regular television, and is not even a question for
internet content. I signed nothing Tuesday, the
contract will be drawn up for Thursday I assume. As
far as the job with their company, they still say
this'll happen, I jsut gotta play it cool for a
bit. Well, I explain to them that this is NOT an
option. I will be gone in a matter of weeks unless
I get some COLD HARD CASH soon.
I even stated that I hated to be so
unprofessional in this setting, because I want to have
faith in them and work together, but I have to
have money here, or they'll have no one to work with
in June. Eric then said he was sure he could get some
free-lance video editing work my way, and not to worry
about it. HELL YES.
Next I went to submit my
auditions, but we their computer stuff was down...so
I'll do it on Thursday. Eric and I then go get some
coffee to brainstorm on how this 4tvs Movie Review
will work out. This is when I really began to get
pumped. We were throwing around ideas on the format.
Maybe a politically incorrect type show with a
roundtable...or we weren't sure. Then it hit me that
if the TVs were simply my THOUGHTS...not necessarily
another Adam, we could really be creative.. Picture a
reviewer in the movie theater with a laptop typing his
review after seeing the movie. The 4tvs are
surrounding him and they are off, until he starts
writing... Then you see the words he's typing, the
clips he's picturing, his different psyche's
interrupting him and defending their feelings...it's
limitless, and it's absolutely cool as shit. It'll be
a 5-6 minute review per movie. And the ideas are just
flying. Of course now we need a movie to get writing.
Well Eric has a bunch of media connections and can get
us both into screenings of new movies...so that's
perfect, but it'll take some time. We need something
NOW for the Pilot. We see there's a sneak preview
of "Frequency" Thursday at 7:30 PM, and there it is.
The pilot is set. We walk back to the office, and I'm
buzzin'. As I drove to the place to pick up the passes
my head was racin'...this is a REALLY good idea
and can be done extremely well. I cannot tell how
pumped I am. And to have 2 people throwing ideas
back and forth..that's perfect for a movie! I've
always been great at taking both sides, but this is
much better....WOW.
So before I left to get the
tickets I asked him if he could please see about
getting me some sort of free-lance stuff. He shook his
head yes. Have I told you this guy is Jon Stewart from
The Daily Show? I mean, he isn't REALLY, but sunuva
bitch he looks like him. I say this only because
when I run through our conversations in my mind,
I'm talking to Jon Stewart. I can't get it out of my
head...LOL. It's kind of cool though. In my mind I've
been hangin' with Jon Stewart the past couple of
days...heh heh. Well I decided to drop off the
passes with him since he was on the way, and he says:
"Oh, and by the way I've got a free-lance project for
you to start working on that needs to be finished by
the end of next week. $12 an hour cool?" Good Christ,
is this a dream? Was it not 24 hours ago I was as
low as I could be? I do find it a bit funny he would
pick $12 an hour out of the air... I wrote that
specifically twice in my last email and he is on the
list. So I see a little bit of "well I know
we can get him for this cheap" in that figure...then
again, that's completely fair. I'm on the honor system
and I'm working from my home. You can't beat that.
Either way I'm floored. That on top of the pilot, the
mtv auditions, the REAL position at the company and
the free-lance stuff in the meantinme at $12 an hour?
Luck. Absolute luck. No,
I can't deny that I have the talent, to do the
stuff...or the work ethic, or the responsibility...or
anything. We all know I've got it...but LUCK got me
this day. Tuesday, April 25th. All I can say is:
"Unbelievable..." It really is. Not sure if any of you
knew how real the end of June was. It still is
somewhat real, but I have a feeling that after
they see what I can do, they will NOT let my
ass go back to Ohio at the end of June. Not a chance.
They've shown so much faith so far.
So there you have it. Can you
believe it? At the most crucial time, in the most
amazing way, something fell in my lap that I'm still
in shock by. You know my dad always said that things
have always fallen in my lap ad nauseum wherever
I go. I always kind of blew that off, because I
didn't really put much weight in it...but he's right.
This has saved my day, and my creative juices are
flowing BIG TIME. Feel free to hold your
breath.
The video for this entry is a
favorite of mine...it is my COMEDIC ENTRY for
hollywoodscreentest.com. The Challenge is to tell how
"CRAZY" you are about the site. How it effects your
life, and how much you love it. Tell me what you
think: VIDEO
Otherwise, thank you again for
reading an entry this damn long. And please send some
reactions my way...